I've written about the emotional ... trying to understand what the hell is happening to me ... and why. So ... I've defined the thoughts and ... the vibes. Well ... don't get me wrong ... cause i've not necessarily understood the meaning of it ... but writing all down ... as a process of self therapy ... it all changed into better. Beginning to have ... clarity. At least ... with Carla. This damn woman ... which masters the art of awakening into me ... emotions that i didn't know that actually exist. Doing it ... again and again. All being ... the show of overflowing ... of the emotional. Feeling really alive ... but also tortured. Probably ... the best explanation being that ... the experience itself became a non ending emotional balance. One ... which unfortunately i've become addicted of. Of course ... it was silly. And ... certainly not wise. But ... this is my life. This is who i am today. I keep saying that i feel tortured ... of so, so many emotions ... but on the other hand ... i can't disconnect of what is happening. Being ... overwhelmed. Randomly losing the control over myself. And ... honestly speaking ... becoming insane.
