“You did the unthinkable Weston. You turned him down initially. Honey that’s practically an open invitation to chase,” Delphine explained.
“I know. Trust me I know that men like Jaxson Halford are used to women chasing them, and to having those he rains his attention on flock to him like a sheep to slaughter. And I can’t stand men like that. But I thought he was different. I thought he … I mean I thought his pursuit was sincere. We talked Delphine. He opened up to me; told me things you won’t find when you Google him. I didn’t think you could fake that kind of sincerity, but obviously you can. You’re right, apparently one of the reasons he was so interested in me is because I didn’t immediately cave in to him. But it wasn’t a game for me; if only I’d known it was to him.”
“So do you really think he was only interested in a casual fling? Are you sure that it wasn’t more?”
“Well then he’s really good, because he fooled you too," Weston said. "He can’t explain away the woman I saw in his arms or the fact that he's been with her for three years. In spite of those facts though, he made it quite clear that I’d be welcome to his bed at any time. But I’m no one’s bedpost notch. I want more.”
“Ahhh, more … if we women could just give up wanting more, we could the find perfect relationship any time we wanted,” Delphine laughed. "But let me play devil's advocate and give the scumbag the benefit of the doubt for a second.
“There’s no room for benefit of the doubt, Delphine. I know what I saw. I know what I heard. Jaxson is involved with another woman, and has been for quite some time. I can’t believe I didn’t pick up on it.”
“Hear me out Weston. I’ve got ‘b******t radar’ and I didn’t sense any with Jaxson. I saw the way he had you pinned up against the wall in your office couple of weeks ago. I thought you all were gonna go at it right then and there. I could feel the heat you two were generating all the way out in the hallway.”
“I just want to forget that I ever allowed myself to get involved with him," Weston groaned.
“But it’s not that easy and you know it,” Delphine warned. “You’re still drawn to him and the real battle here is not him or another woman. The real battle is with yourself Weston.”
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The real battle is with yourself Weston.
The real battle is with yourself Weston.
The real battle is with yourself Weston.
Weston replayed the words over and over again in her head as she left the office later that day. Their truth rang so deeply in her soul that she could no longer deny it.
She was head over heels in in love with the philandering Jaxson Halford, the very man whose contract her company depended on for survival … and there was nothing she could do about either fact right now.
