Confessions of a British bouncer addresses the issue of bullying, fear of confrontation and depression, along with tips and tricks to reboot our negative alter egos.The books underlying theme is that we all can become the person we most despise if we don’t keep ourselves in check. After decades of martial arts training, hundreds of street, cage and bare-knuckle fights, I found that I had become the person I feared the most as a young a man, the bully. This book will talk about my own personal civil war I had in my head every day, a childhood of fear, bullying and intimidation which lead to depression, Ill touch on how I took life by the balls and turned a scared young boy and transformed into a feared psychotic doorman and then on to tree hugging peaceful vegan that I am today (well, that’s what I like to think). I always wanted to write a book that touched on bullying, fear and depression but felt like a fraud, who would look for answers from someone who has been haunted by fear and depression themselves, who would read a book about avoiding cancer by someone who smoked, it just seemed so wrong, until one day I listened to a audiobook while out running, the audiobook was by Dr Paul McKenna, Dr McKenna is a hypnotist who helps people with phobias, addictions, depressions and anxieties, what makes Dr McKenna different is that he suffered from depression and anxiety for a large part of his life, Dr McKenna also attempted to take his own life on several occasions, some would say Dr McKenna should sort his own problems out before he helps others, but not me, I would much rather read that book that was written out of experience opposed to how to guide written by the self-righteous.
